Motivation problems...

I have been a total sloth this week.  Not only have I been extremely lazy in the exercise department, I've been eating like crap again.  There's far too many foods in this house that are too tempting, and I have no control over what comes home...so I need more willpower than I currently have.  I have been feeling quite sluggish this week and I think it's a combination of staying up way too late (though partly that is because baby got off schedule and now sees fit to stay up until midnight...gonna have to nip that in the bud here soon), eating heavy, high calorie foods (my birthday was Monday and we ordered out, and it's been a snowball rolling downhill since), and not going out to walk because of the bitter wind and now cold.  The daylight is getting shorter and that is adding to it, I think. 

Part of me has been quite stubborn and defiant about eating healthy.  The truth is, I like foods that are terrible for you.  I know in my mind that they're terrible and I shouldn't eat them, and I feel a little bit angry that I shouldn't eat the foods that I like--even less than that of people who are at lower risk for heart disease.  I'm kind of angry that I keep losing all my crutches.  Somehow I'm just supposed to deal with emotions in healthy ways when other people are not required to.  For heaven's sake, I don't drink, I don't use drugs, I no longer smoke, and now I'm not supposed to eat anything that tastes good.  I know I need to continue making this lifestyle adjustment, but I have to drag along that inner child in me that keeps kicking and screaming, and not wanting to cooperate.

Once I get up and going, I'm usually fine.  It's actually getting up to do it.  I know that I always feel better after a long walk, so why can't I get my butt up and just do it?  I think part of it is the fact that not only do my kids get bored, I have a tendency to get bored, too.  Having the iPod helps, but not when I have two kids trying to get out of the stroller when we're still only halfway home, and it's not like I can let them walk in the street--they're way too young.  I'm going to try a few things suggested to me and see if that helps with their boredom. 

/end whining